Today was a much better day. I slept 10 hours last night and I swear, it was all about healing. My mind was better (I think I'm fighting a bit of change of plans - broke my toe- depression). My toe wasn't throbbing. My kids were in a good mood. I stayed in my pjs until the afternoon, showered, and then put on fresh pjs. Pizza was supper. It was a good day. I think I needed this down time for my mind as well as my toe.
This was suppose to be my week for momentum. Now it's a week of rest.
The hubs and I have a repeat conversation that goes something like.. 3-4 weeks of resting, taking it easy and babying my toe is better than a life time of hurt and a retirement of complaining about my toe, how much it hurts/aches or worse, it limiting what I can do. So for the next month, it's about healing. This weekend I listened to a sermon on Worship. Letting go of my agendas aka healing my toe, and just hanging out with God and who he is. http://vimeo.com/66658086 Tonight Scott played video games with the kids and I was able to have an impromptu praise & worship time. It was soul healing. I was able to shake off the expectation I had for myself. Chill out and hear the voice of God. It's awesome to be reminded of His love. His passion for my life and the things I love - what what - he gave me those desires?!?!?! The biggest - to forgive myself for being so nervous and hurting myself in the first place. I hadn't stopped to plug into his peace - I was in my own head - and it did me in. A tough lesson to learn the hard way. Alas, it was a great hour.
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